It’s seldom that I feel to bear my heart in a way which might not brighten up your day.
I have never found myself tempted to relate a poignant tale only to follow it up with a pretty cake. The frivolous and the earnest make an awkward, uncomfortable pair. Today I am making an exception in response to the loss of our sister-in-law Nicole.
If you would rather skip to the bottom and simply read the quick note on this Frozen Cherry Cheesecake I completely understand.
My heart is so heavy and laid low. I feel ungrateful and simply rather sad by the realisation that my reality, despite my opinion of it, is actually rather grand.
Life dishes out knocks. I know this to be true. I have taken a few blows to the nose myself. I am well acquainted with what plain old sucky feels like. I understand hurt. I have survived heartache and disappointment, rancid humiliation. I do not doubt that you have encountered much of the same yourself.
In fact, come to think of it, I have lived through pain in both its physical and rather more damaging emotional form. I may be scarred but I am certainly not damaged. I have always refused to be irreparable.
My setbacks have caused me a degree of affliction, but they certainly hold no measure against true suffering. And this most fortunate lack denies me the ability to fully comprehend it. I can however recognize suffering. I like to think that we can all in fact recognize suffering; empathy is a rare beauty in the human condition. How I wish with all my heart that I could not see it now.
How the hearts of so very many people ache for your handsome boys and your treasured little girl. How many of those who loved you despite the tears running down their own cheeks have rushed to hold up the arms of your dear husband as he loses himself to his grief.
Our sadness over your loss is deepened by the extent to which we feel so utterly helpless to mend their precious broken hearts.
It is in the death of the young and the beautiful that we truly come face to face with our fallibility as human beings. It is a young death like yours that is the most powerful. We turn our faces to the sky and try to make sense of the nonsensical. We have no words, and neither should we because the wise know that a young death can and does render us speechless. But still we are desperate for something to say, that one thing that might lift the weight of the tragedy and fill this gaping void. We know not what to do about a life left so obviously unfinished.
For now we pray and wait on comfort and the peace that surpasses all understanding. We will love fiercely those that you have left in our care. We will be the hope they need until they find hope again for themselves.
We promise that even when life resumes and they seem to be doing okay that we will pay attention to their moments tinged with sadness because they simply long for you. We will speak to them about you freely and often. We will remember your birthday; the way your delicate gold jewelry hung softly from your wrists and spun around your slim fingers. We will remember your laugh so contagious and warm. We will remember you their proud mummy. We will remember you the love of his life.
Nic, we will never forget.
Love always, Sam
So this Frozen Cherry Cheesecake comes directly to you from the eighties. This was one dessert which I clearly remember asking my mom to make for me. The ingredients are a retro delight of Tennis Biscuits and cherries from a can. My parents were obviously very rich back in the day and never thought to tell us because I about near fainted when I saw the cost of stoned canned cherries. Despite my state of shock I was still able to make it home and throw this dessert together in about five minutes thanks to it being a skill level one kind of thing.
Sophistication it is certainly not, but love it you most certainly will. Its okay, just roll with it.
- 125 g butter
- 125 ml (½ C) sugar
- 1 egg
- 250 g plain cream cheese
- 5 ml (1 t) vanilla essence
- 1 packet Tennis Biscuits
- 1 x 410 g can stoned black cherries, drained
- 2 x 80 g slabs plain chocolate
- Cream the butter and sugar until pale and light.
- Add the egg and beat well.
- Add the cream cheese and the vanilla essence.
- Lay the tennis biscuits out on large piece of cling wrap in 4 x 3 rows.
- Use a spatula to spread the cream cheese filling evenly over the biscuits.
- Place as many of the cherries as you would like to use in a row down the center.
- Melt one slab of chocolate and pour it over the cherries.
- Use the cling wrap to help you to bring up the two side rows of tennis biscuits up such that you form a triangle wedge.
- Secure the cling wrap and freeze overnight.
- Remove the triangle from the freezer.
- Melt the remaining slab of chocolate and pour over the top of the triangle. The chocolate should set very quickly.
- Slice into slices and serve.